not [N] ice

if that was supposed to make me down, you need to try harder!!

2011-09-17T23:15:00.000+07:00

"bonekaku selesai!!!" kataku dengan senyum lebar dan binar mata yang tidak coba kusembunyikan.

matanya bertemu dengan mataku. satu detik yang mengintimidasi. ekspresinya berubah. tidak ada pancaran ketulusan disana. 'hmm .. bukan ini yang kuharapkan' pikirku.

"sudahkah kamu memberinya jari" katanya. nada suaranya membuatku tidak nyaman. "tanpa jari , dia tidak bisa menggenggam, tidak bisa menangkap dan memegang" lanjutnya. "liat ini, aku sudah membawa benang benang ini, akan tampak bagus sekali untuk membuat jari".
aku menundukkan wajahku, menggenggam bonekaku di belakang tubuhku, meremasnya tanpa sadar. tidak ada jari di bonekaku. aku belum sempat membuatnya.

"dan baju!! sudahkan kaubuatkan baju?" nada suaranya berubah lagi. semakin berani dan terang-terangan. merendahkan. mejatuhkan. "kamu tidak bisa membuat boneka tanpa baju!! lihat, aku sudah punya kain untuk baju bonekaku nanti, tanpanya, masih kurang sekali!!" dia tersenyum. mencoba membuat senyum pengertian yang gagal ditunjukkan dan malah menjadi seringai menakutkan.

"kita janji menunjukkannya pada mama hari ini kan??" tanyaku tanpa berani memandang matanya.

masih dengan nada suara yang sama dia berkata "kamu boleh menunjukkannya hari ini. aku belum siap,perlu keliman keliman baju dan pita pita dirambutnya. selasa... pasti!!"

"pasti?? itu juga yang kamu bilang dua hari yang lalu, seminggu yang lalu, sebulan yang lalu. perlu berapa kali pasti lagi?? jarum dan benang tidak dapat menjahit sendiri. bonekaku mungkin belum sempurna. tapi setidaknya aku mencoba membuatnya dan bukan menyempurnakannya dalam pikiranku. aku akan memperlihatkan bonekaku pada mama apapun yang terjadi. hari ini. dan aku akan menyempurnakannya sedikit demi sedikit sesuai petunjuk mama. entah perlu berapa lama, entah berapa keras mama akan memarahiku karena ketidaksempurnaan itu. tapi setidaknya aku memulainya hari ini" kataku tanpa berpura pura sabar lagi, meninggalkannya dengan tatapan tidak percaya terpatri di wajahnya.

a friend doesn't supposed to bring us down,
a friend is supposed to care, to protect, to understand...

isn't it??

everything feels like it's going around and round and round in circles

2011-09-17T22:28:00.003+07:00

first time, a stranger
it's develop into a friend
then a good friend
not for long, a lover
break ups
an enemy
hates
completely a stranger
then, friends after so long
(it's safer than being a lover or enemy)

.r.e.l.a.t.i.o.n.s.h.i.p.

hum hum hum

2011-09-17T22:26:00.001+07:00

when i look at my notes ... i feel so ...
Copy Cat sekaliiiiiii

31 and countings....

2011-08-06T22:10:00.003+07:00

it's funny how time flies, and here we are stand still ...
when the world hates me, u protect me ...
when i'm in doubt, u convince me ...
when i'm sad, u comfort me ...
when i cry, u hold me and said "everything is gonna be ok"
you and me

i'm loving every gesture u make
i love the way you make that funny face
i love the way you laugh
i'm loving you! all of you

every tears, fights, depression, frustration ... u never left
keeping faiths on what we have
31 words is not enough to say what we have and what you've done to my life
thank you ... and happy 31st birthday dear ....

thank you

2011-05-17T20:56:00.001+07:00

... you're good at covering your feelings but i know you're jealous !

...sorry.

Like a Hide and Seek ...

2011-05-04T20:43:00.002+07:00

like a hide and seek
you hide, i seek
then i hide when you're around
it's like i need you, but i don't really need you
it's like i'm giving you chance, then i take it back
it's so fun to do, yet i'm sorry for it
I still think i'm overdo it.

sorry.

loooooong timeeeeeee agoooo

2011-05-03T21:42:00.000+07:00

i think i've gone too far ,,,

:(

i know i'm good when i'm mad

2011-04-29T22:12:00.002+07:00

unsatisfied etc etc.
ungrateful etc etc.

smile ... :)
at least work it!!!!!!!

zen zen zen ...

2011-04-29T22:01:00.002+07:00

.list .of .things .that .keeps .you .wake

_SAD
_cry
_angry

=

(still) YOU!

Note to Self!

2011-04-23T23:16:00.002+07:00

i am superior!!
i can control my emotion!!
i can control my anger!!
i choose . my own destiny!!
no one can bring me down!!
i'm in the state of happines!!
i'm always happy!!

(=)

i. hate. you!

hi! i'm doing great!

2010-10-27T11:09:00.001+07:00

day 1 surabaya, 04 februari 2010

2010-02-04T16:21:00.000+07:00

quite ok.. (i guess)
i think i'll stay, as long as it need.
atau sampai kehabisan duit :D

notetoself: batasi penggunaan internet biar ga
boros!

cih

2010-01-31T19:29:00.000+07:00

sama sekali ga produktif akhir akhir ini ..
tampar saya! tampar!!! *hayah*

OUCH

2010-01-20T18:40:00.001+07:00

dia bilang : " aku aja ga mikirin kamu kok"

*dan aku akan selalu mengingatnya

zen zzen zen

2010-01-20T17:23:00.001+07:00

butuh lebih terorganisir ... :(
anyone??

buzz buzz buzz

2010-01-04T00:51:00.002+07:00

all talk with no action = bullshit (litteraly, tai kebo) *i hate myself now*

#2010 dare to say NO!!
No! i don't need it
No! i don't want it
No! i don't love you
No! i hate it
No! i'm trying to keep my promise.
No! you can't
NO!

numb

2009-12-26T16:57:00.000+07:00

ouch my back hurts

distraction

2009-12-25T18:08:00.004+07:00

i have promise on my birthday that i should try to be nice,
means, i should stop doing un-nice thing
means, i should forget my maker
means, i should stop looking for a distraction
means, i should forget all of the things that related to it in anyway (period)

the burdened of doing it doesn't compare its satisfaction
yet, it makes me feel unworthy
i hate myself for letting that happened to me

therefore i choose not to do it again

I swear I'm not talking about Men (again)

2009-12-22T17:50:00.002+07:00

Let see.. until today i'm no longer telling a lie, well, once! when andhika call, but that's it.
And now .. i'm so mean *crying* .
I can't help it, but it feels so glad to know that my ex has just ended his relationship with a girl named widi, i even laughing that girl for having the same situation like me.
Poor girl ..
i am so MEAN!! T____T

I didn't mean to do that, and now i'm sorry..
bad Luci!! really really bad Luci!! :(

now look at yourself in a mirror

2009-12-19T14:51:00.004+07:00

I never thought you were a fool
But darling, look at you.
You gotta stand up straight, carry your own weight

a grown up luci??

2009-12-09T19:16:00.003+07:00

i'm 18 now!! *faint*
hahahha .. ok i lied ..
well kata orang 'apalah arti sebuah umur??' haha
*oh well
new age, new purpose, new life
first thing first ..
try not to lie *believe me, it's really hard when u have lots of boyfriend, so i choose to be single now hooraaaaaayyy!!!!
try to be (more) patient toward everyone else *those anger management doesn't work at all
try to be nice *yes, i'm quite annoying for someone who doesn't know me
try not to rude *literally haha
i better stop writing before i start to lie again ..
bless you all!!

**munch munch

kita oks banget deh prend

2009-11-12T20:24:00.003+07:00

A : ya ampun luc..
npe lw jd tambah melo gto c...??? ~nah loh aq bisa mellow loh ternyata
Me : Heh? Kok melow sii?? ~kaget ceritanya
A : iye w liat fb lw..
lw ntu ky orng yg gi hlg arh gto deh.. ~et dah hilang arah bo!
Me : Jiahh.. Masa sii?
Mau dong ditunjukin arahnya.. Hahaha.. ~kerupuk ih!
A : hahaha..
sygny lw jauh bgt c...
cuba pas lw dsni
wekkk ~baru sadar kalo temenq sebangsa kwek kwek
Me : perhatian bgt si kamu..
Jadi suka deh.. ~ihirrr bisa gombal kan gue
A : halah...
gaya lw bu...
dsrh nemenin wmah ogah2an.....!!!!
huuuu ~eisetdah ngarep nya beneran to??
Me : hahahaha.. ~emang bener sii *mati kutu
A : seneng lw...
ktw2..?? ~gila! gaul banget pan temen gue hahaha
Me : banget! Ga boong deh! ~sambil manggut manggut aturan
A : w jg ikt sng deh kl gto.. ~baik hati sekali *halah
kpnlw maen ksni lg??
kmrn da lwngan wat farmasi..
Me : jiah ga bilang..
Ntar, nunggu panggilan bni.. ~gaya bener gue
A : gmn critanya??? emg lw jursan ap????
jgn blg jkt mgl PP..
aws lho ~ngancem ceritanya??
Me : Kimia. Tuh, baik kan gue :D gue emang baik :D
A : halah.....
emg bni da lwngan kimia ???
lw mo bwt bom pa bu? ~kenapa kimia selalu di hubungkan dengan bom?? kami juga manusia biasa!! *halah
Me : Kan semua jurusan fresh graduate, ga update sii lo ~nah loh, gue mulai gaul kan??
A : yah lw nya kgak blg2 c...
eh w mo blk yah...
capek.. klo da lw kan bsa mnta d pjitin yah..... ~sejak kapan aye jadi tukang pijet??
hehehe
A : bu...
kgn... ~eisetdah
Me : balik??
la guenya mu kesitu malah kamu balik ki piye?? ga seru ih! ~halah halah
A : mo kmn?
cni2 w tgguin dah....
pa c yg gak wat lw.....
♥ ~ihirrr pakai tanda love
Me : halah gaya lo
hahaha..
A : kgk pcy ya udh...
sak krep mu mbak ayuk....
Me : percaya kok, aq selalu percaya sama kamu.. *halah ~sepertinya i'm getting used on gombal menggombal inih hahaha
A : hahaha..
tp sygny org tw lw kgk s7
mri kawin lari ajah....
hwakkk ~nah loh sejak kapan orang tua gue kenal die??
Me : jangan ah capek, naek mobil kek.. :P ~angguk angguk
A : kalo cpe ya berhnti dl lah...
ntr w lon beli..
plgan 2th lg
doain aj yah............ ~motivator yang baik ga sii gue?? *kedip kedip
Me : Haha.. Amin!!
jangankan doa, apasih yang engga buat kamu.. ~*cih
A : yee
ngikut aj lw..
kuk lw jd pasrah gto gak ky biasany??? ~jadi bertanya tanya seliar apa saya biasanya
hahahha
Me : Haha..
O.. ga suka yg pasrah ya.. Suka yang sedikit2 liar gitu? ~*ehem mendadak batuk
Hahaha..
A : Tau aj lw..
Hahaha
Puas lw ~puas? perasaan belum diapa apain *halah
Me: He em aja dah! ~over and out :P

kita lucu ya pren *kedip kedip :D

does it really necessary ?

2009-10-31T11:25:00.001+07:00

berniat mau bikin id yang 'dewasa' biar dianggap serius!! wish me luck!!

did you know??

2009-10-31T10:13:00.003+07:00

i love reading my own blog!
makes me fell orgasm already! *halah

Quickie oops Sum

2009-10-29T19:51:00.003+07:00

wah ... sudah dua bulan !!!
baru sadar, kl tgl terakhir saya posting ternyata 2 bulan yang lalu ..
gosh!!
apa yang sudah terjadi pada seorang saya selama dua bulan ini??
well..
masih hidup,
masih bisa bernafas walau agak sesak .. *oxygen pergi kemana ya kalo kubutuhin??
masih mencintai walau disuruh pergi dulu .. *kalo aq pergi beneran piye??
masih disitu situ saja .. *belum pindah kemana mana
masih itu itu ... nakal memang *hayooo pada mikir apa* hahahaha ssstttt!!

let's just say ..
belum banyak yang berubah selama 2 bulan ini
oh well .. ga banyak yang bisa dirubah juga dari seorang yang sesempurna saya *dimuntahi

super (ex) friend?!

2009-10-29T17:38:00.003+07:00

mood swing!! pertanda PMS (pra and/or post) yes i have them both

to call a (good) mood back,
all you need is a super funny friend
that is willing to wake up at 2 am,
stay overnight,
to wipe your tears,
to calm you down
to hear your stories
or just talk ...

but apparently i don't have that kind of friend,
so as you guess i still have a bad mood going on *oh well

anyone??

i'm in love ...

2009-10-29T17:34:00.001+07:00

i love love love love love love
love love love love love love
love love love love love love
love love love love love love
love love love love love love
love love love love love love
love love love love love love
love love love love love love

my new LAYOUTS!!

thank you DancingSheep for making this happened *hayah

such a blasstttt!!!!

2009-08-29T16:41:00.000+07:00

sstttt ....

2009-08-17T14:18:00.001+07:00

i'm playing around
and start pretending :again:

oh .. heart, sorry for making you hurt

distracted

2009-06-20T00:21:00.002+07:00

....
i understand that most of people can get emotional too
but i don't expect people of being rude to me
*sigh
....

....
gosh!
am i having a traumatic or what??
i don't like being touch by my new bf and/or also any other man in this whole planet
and it really makes me sick just to think about their hand laying on my skin :gezzzz:
*sigh
....

bangun!!

2009-05-06T08:21:00.000+07:00

"Tuhan mengkritik orang orang pemalas, yang salah satu cirinya adalah terlalu banyak tidur. "

Menohok sekali..

1st

2009-04-21T10:17:00.004+07:00

since (i don't know why) i cried at least once or twice a month, i hope it will be good for me to post things that make me smile in a random post.
and first things that make me smile today would be ....

1. Funny songs!!
song that make me smile these moandays would be jai ho from pcd or a. r rahman(original (indian)) it's 'oh so coooollllllllll. funny. and make you smile :D
try it!!

Jaihhoooooooooo^^

that OH so days!!

2009-04-21T10:06:00.003+07:00

yesterday was an aaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggghhhhhhh and weep day
lame!! lame!!

nangis nangis ga jelas cemburu cemburu ga jelas karena "kamu kamu kamu" (kudu musti dan harus dinyanyikan mirip charlie st12 loh!)
but in the next morning finally realize that it's not about me anymore
they were'nt talking about me after all
jiahahahahaha maluuuuuuuuuwwwwwwwww

padahal dah sampai seisi #jogja #jogjakarta #yogyakarta #magelang dicurhatin (doh! ketahuan kl suka mirc-an :P)
dan alhasil beratus-ratus nomer part time friends masup di hp 3120 classic saya (jah pake disebutin lagi!! :P)
wuhahahahahaahhaa

thanks strangers, for always being there for me!!
bhahahahahahha^^

feeling random

2009-03-08T09:42:00.001+07:00

did you know??

2009-03-08T09:40:00.001+07:00

i haven't quit my piano lesson which i started about 5 months ago
yayyyyyy!!!!
i'm not a quiter after all^^

23. so called liar

2009-03-05T16:46:00.001+07:00

Bos : Kamu lalai kamu harus diberi sangsi!
Me : Jadi..saya harus keluar juga mas?
lah kemarin dikasih laporan diem ajah
Bos : Besok gajimu saya potong!!
Me : Ya mas.
anjrid bukan salah gue, gue yang dipotong gajinya

A : Makasih ya kamu baik banget!
Me : [senyum]
baik! baik! eneg gue dibilang baik mulu

sms..
B : Boleh minta tolong ga, bisa beliin pulsa q ga? Mu beli tapi jauh dari rumah. Tolong banget ya..
Me : cuekin
emang gue emak lu apa beli2in lu segala..siapa elu?! ngaca dong!!

arrrgghh.. You are sooo irritating!!

update

2009-03-01T19:34:00.000+07:00

i'm jealous of my sister's walking closet

my dad is a ninja

2009-02-25T14:06:00.005+07:00

jam 9 pagi
di salah satu rumah sakit terkenal di jogja

dad : mana nih dokternya katanya jam 9:30 jam segini belum datang
me : jah .. baru juga jam 9 be
dad : (ngomong ke mami) coba tanya ke bagian informasi, lupa mesti dokternya, mesti lupa ini (panik)
mom : nanti juga datang
dad : la wong tutup kayak gitu kantornya (nunjuk ke pintu klinik mata) ... mesti lupa ini (nada tinggi, mulai marah)
me : yo wis q tanya ke bag informasi dulu (pergi nanya ke bag informasi)

beberapa menit kemudian
me : poli mata ga buka, tp kalo dah janjian ditunggu aja katanya
dad : tuh kan, mesti lupa dokternya (mondar mandir)
...
dad : pulang aja lah (pergi keluar)
me : (diem, maen game)
mom : (diem, baca e-book)
dad : (balik ke dalam) wah .. kalo ga datang gini pulang aja (mondar mandir)
dad : (bilang ke mami) sik, beli rokok

jam 9:30 tepat

perawat udah manggil manggil nama babe ...
mom : (keluar nyari babe)
me : (kenalan ma pasien disebelah)

30 menit kemudian ...
babe masuk ke ruang operasi dengan muka bersalah cengar cengir
me : bilang aje kalo takut dioperasi (ngomong dalam hati)
bhahahahahaha
piss be

so ...
operasi mata sukses!!!!!
yipppiieeeeeeee!!
glad for my dad ...

now my dad look like an ninja
dengan penutup mata di mata sebelah kanannya
huahahahahaha^^

21. i just know what to pray tonight

2009-02-24T08:35:00.004+07:00

Dear GOD,
please stab him repeatedly, let him die slowly. Send a serial killer to do the job. Terkhusus untuk dia, jangan yang perempuan, because they'll end up having sex.
And GOD, throw a lot of rotten tomatoes to him. So he'll stink to dead.
Or if i'm asking too much, just make his tummy bigger, so he'll lost his confident and die in a shame. Oh..that would be perfect GOD.
God, you know what i've always wish for. Please take that notebook away from him forever. So he'll die for his lost of that notebook. Oh.. I know he'll suffer. Wouldn't it be great GOD?!
Thank you GOD.
Amen.

:evil:

and so..

2009-02-21T16:02:00.000+07:00

everything happened to fast..

my father will have an eye operation soon..
wishing you well and healthy daddy..

the time has come (again!)

2009-02-20T11:22:00.003+07:00

dan bu dyah bilang ...

GOOD props, next make ppt for the seminar!
By the end of this Feb try to get the props. seminar!
For the methodology use block diagram (ppt).

hayuuukkkk seminarrrrrr!!
doakan saya teman!!

explain all

2009-02-18T21:51:00.000+07:00

tata cara penulisan daftar pustaka

2009-02-18T21:21:00.004+07:00

Luci, Lalala. (2009). Argggghhhhh Bisa Gila Saya. Self Press Ltd. : Di Depan
Monitor Komputer.

woooggghh..

2009-02-17T09:30:00.000+07:00

tik tok tik tok
tengok ke kiri

semut semut

berlarian kesana kemari
iri..

tik tok tik tok
lihat ke depan

sepi..

tik tok tik tok

mempunyai pedang panjang
kalau berjalan prok prok prok..

halfway to nirvana ...

2009-01-30T21:30:00.002+07:00

hahahahaa ...

complicated beauty

2009-01-29T18:32:00.001+07:00

mbak nya cantik ..
bhahahhahaa^^

kalo kata delon mah indah pada waktunya [hahaha^^]

2009-01-29T17:46:00.000+07:00

where's my bright side?? [nada nuduh]

2009-01-29T17:09:00.006+07:00

huhuhu
dududuududud ..
luci lumutan

seminar gagal total ...
seraca luci belajar teori yang ditanyain tata tulis haduhhh
itelegensi rendah, imajinasi tinggi
sempurna sekaliiii !!!
hahahaha

mesti kudu harus nyari tanggal dan hari baik lagi hihi
umm well ...

refreshing dulu ...
pinginnya ke pemandian air panas
kalo ada yang punya manfaat menghilangkan :
leher kaku
sakit pinggang
kelelahan kronis
sakit angan
perasaan sedih
patah hati

any idea??
bhahhhhaha ^^

OhMy

2009-01-29T01:22:00.001+07:00

liarliarliar
i'm a plastic
i'm not real

[doh]

after the rain

2009-01-27T17:01:00.000+07:00

new hubbyyyy

2009-01-26T13:05:00.002+07:00

as you can see i have new hobby ..
which is ..

tadaaaa ...
creating sets!!!

it's always nice mixing pictures
adding one to another
hoho^^
awesomenesss!!!!

suddenly feel

2009-01-26T13:03:00.001+07:00

orange .....

hum hum nyam nyam

2009-01-26T10:54:00.001+07:00

mami memandang langsung ke arah mata saya
dan berkata ..
"Nduk, mbo' rambutnya disisir!!"

bhahahahhaa^^

for my grandma..

2009-01-26T03:42:00.001+07:00

i don't know how many times i see her cry..
biasanya karena usia tua yang sudah menggerogotinya secara sadar ikut meninggalkan tanda tanda keberadaannya.
tulang rapuh, dan kaki yang sudah tak lagi mampu menopang berat badannya.
rasa sakit yang kadang tidak bisa ditahan oleh tubuh tuanya.
dan malam ini untuk kesekian kali saya terbangun karena tangisannya.
yang bukan untuk dia sendiri ternyata.
sepertinya dia mengkhawatirkan kesehatan my lil sister.

dalam upaya menenangkannya malam ini..
untuk pertamakali saya merasa..
'she's not gonna live long'

dan saya belum pernah merasa seHARUS ini!!
for that reason..
i will give her what she want. no matter what it takes.

For you grandma.
And also for everyone whose expecting me to do so.
I Love You.

bee bla bla bla

2009-01-24T22:03:00.002+07:00

knp??
kok bisa??
kapan??
are you ok??
how do you feel??

broken heart...
oh my...

so..
nangis tengah malam, missing, but can't do anything about it, anger, hurt or just feel numb.

that's some 'normal' answer
yg mungkin sudah diketahui atau bahkan diharapkan oleh si penanya

oh yes i choose to avoid that kind of conversation

karena luci pikir..
ga seru ih ngomongin yang sudah biasa [bhahaha^^]

next question please!! [hihihi^^]

dudududu

2009-01-24T14:20:00.003+07:00

02:12pm
teringat perdebatan 2 orang teman saya tentang adsorpsi?? absorpsi?? atau absorbsi??

incredibly inacurate kalau saya bilang.

ah..
hujan ..

jangan datang!!
saya belum mandi!

i just know how to deal with it

2009-01-24T13:27:00.000+07:00

[. . .]

2009-01-24T00:35:00.000+07:00

until then .. i sleep

2009-01-22T21:20:00.003+07:00

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be some that can be loved. The rest is up to them.
I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.
I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
I've learned that it's not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts.
I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do.
I've learned that you can do some thing in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.
I've learned that you can keep going long after you can't.
I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel. That either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done regardless of the consequences.
I've learned that money is a lousy way to keep score.
I've learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.
I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.
I've learned that you should never tell a child their dreams are unlikely or outlandish. Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it.
I've learned that no matter good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.
I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

Good-bye

2009-01-21T21:54:00.000+07:00

...

2009-01-20T14:42:00.000+07:00

hancur.

sky : nowadays

2008-12-18T20:31:00.003+07:00

so i crawl back into your open arm

06.08 di suatu tempat di ring road utara

i didn't mean to be ungrateful

2008-12-18T20:21:00.001+07:00

I found God
on the corner of First and Amistad
Where the west
was all but won
All along
Smoking his last cigarette
I said, where've you been?
He said, ask anything.

Where were you?
When everything was falling apart.
All my days spent by the telephone.
And all I needed was a call
It never came
To the corner of Firs tand Amistad

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late.
You found me, you found me.

But in the end
Everyone ends up alone
Losing hope
The only one who's ever known
Who I am, Who I'm not, Who I want to be
[ The Fray Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
No way to know
How long she will be next to me

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late.
You found me, you found me.

I've been calling for years and years
and you've never left me no messages
Never sent me no letters

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late.
You found me, you found me.

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late.
You found me, you found me.

The Fray - You Found Me

birthday wishes

2008-12-09T20:25:00.002+07:00

masnya bilang:

" semoga rambutnya cepet panjang, ga bercabang, tambah bagus, ga rusak rusak ... "

thanks dear,
love you
xoxo

oh my God

2008-12-07T19:06:00.003+07:00

I'm apparently the last person in the world to discover this song ...

Univited - Alanis Morissette

Like anyone would be
I am flattered by your fascination with me
Like any hot blooded woman
I have simply wanted an object to crave
But you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

Must be strangely exciting
To watch the stoic squirm
Must be somewhat heartening
To watch shepard meet shepard
But you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

Like any uncharted territory
I must seem greatly intriguing
You speak of my love like
You have experienced like mine before
But this is not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

I don't think you unworthy
I need a moment to deliberate

easy listening yet easy to play...
awesomeness!!

meminjam istilahnya [lupa] 'being petite is fabulous'

2008-12-04T20:42:00.004+07:00

pagi ini di bank ...

mas mas teler superrr cakep : kok berani sendirian ke bank dek??

he treat me like i was fourteen ....
hahha^^
this is how i say look can deceive

Mood :
Listening to : Peter, Bjorn and John - Young Folks

what a ...

2008-11-27T18:41:00.003+07:00

perfect day i said ...
bimbingan jam 7
bangun jam 6.30
(*buru buru buru buru)

lovely day i said ...
ketika proposal skripsi tertinggal
(*haduhhhh .. keep calm Luci!!)

shinny day i said ...
ketika dengan indahnya dosen pembimbing bilang
"bimbingan lagi bulan februari ya.."
(*senyum luci!!)

fun day i said ...
ketika dengan anggunnya luci nyasar dalam perjalanan pulang
(*nanya nanya Mode : on)

still, a great day i said ...
kuliah, dengan kendaraan pinjaman ...
(*berasa orang kaya saya ... huahahahahhaa)

makasih be, sering sering minjemin ya!!
hoho^^

Mood : mencari jalan alternatif pulang
Listening to : lagu lupa judul

awesomeness

2008-11-12T20:01:00.001+07:00

In the days before you were young
we used to sit in the morning sun
we used to turn the radio on
what happened?
we'd see our lies in the eyes of fate
and take our cradles to the grave
but even then we're never saved
from danger

and if you ever leave me come
i will be there waiting
waiting for you know i will
i love you for ever
i'll never say never

but i've only got two hands
and i'll never learn to dance
i'll never get a second chance
whatever
i'll take the breath away from your sighs
and wipe the tears away from your eyes
and hope the fire never dies
inside you

and if you ever leave me come
i will be there waiting
waiting for you know i will
i love you
i love you
i love you...

in the days before you were young
we used to sit in the morning sun
we used to turn the radio on
what happened?

Travis - Before You Were Young

Mood : In Love
Listening to : that

bule bule

2008-11-11T17:35:00.006+07:00

disebuah perjalanan pulang ...
seorang bule yang rupawan mengajak luci berbicara dengan bahasa indonesia nya yang terpatah patah (halah!!)

bule : turun mana?
luci : muntilan
bule : kamu cantik ya..
luci : (ehm) makasih (mulai kehilangan kontrol diri hahahahahaha)
bule : sudah punya pacar??
luci : sudah
bule : cuma tanya kok ... km umur brp??
luci : 22
bule : agak tua ya..
luci : #@$@&#%#$^*%

[siyalllll]

????

2008-11-05T19:52:00.002+07:00

acting soooooo nicely
asking apologize too often
bla bla bla ...

hehehee
bingung mu nulis apa ...
been worried about something,
something i should, and i shouldn't do
my mistake,
huge mistake,

haduh be, anakmu sudah bisa nakal...
beliin hp dong!!

Mood : sukasukacumacuma
Listenig to : Stars - Your Ex-Lover is Dead

self thought

2008-11-04T17:31:00.002+07:00

what if .... ??

just listen

2008-11-01T14:45:00.003+07:00

entah kenapa lagu ini begitu mendoktrin ...

When we met light was shed
Thoughts free flow you said
You’ve got
Somethin’
Deep inside of you

A wind chime voice sounds
Sway of your hips ‘round rings true
It goes deep inside of you

These secret garden beams
Changed my life so it seems

A Fall breeze blows outside
I don’t break stride
Thoughts are warm
And they go deep inside of you

Oh yeah
And I never felt alone
Alright
Ohhh ohhh ‘til I met you

Friends say I’ve changed
I don’t listen
‘Cause I live to be
Deep inside of you

Slide up her dress
Shouts in darkness
I’m so alive
I’m deep inside of you

You said boy made girl feel good
But still
Deep inside still

I never felt alone
‘Til I met you
I’m alright on my own
And then I met you
And I’d know what to do if I just knew what’s comin’

I would change myself if I could
I would walk with my people if I could find ‘em
And I’d say that I’m sorry to you
I’m sorry to you
And I don’t wanna call you
But then I wanna to call you
‘Cause I don’t wanna crush you
But I feel like crushin’ you
And it’s true
I took for granted you were with me
I breathe by your looks and you look right through me

(We were broke and) didn’t know

And we were broke and didn’t know (3x)

Right
Ohhh that’s right
Ohhh

Somethin’s gone
You withdraw
And I’m not strong like before
I was deep inside of you

I can go nowhere
I burn candles and stare at a ghost
Deep inside of you

And some great need in me
Starts to bleed

I’ve lost myself there’s nothin’ left
It’s all gone

Deep inside of you (3x)

Third Eye Blind - Deep Inside Of You

me and my big mouth

2008-11-01T14:38:00.004+07:00

Tempat : Di depan Rumah
Tuduhan : Bersosialisasi

Saturday, 1st November 2008 (pagi pagi)

kepada seorang tetangga sebelah rumah yang sedang berbelanja
Luci : Belanja apa budhe??
Si Budhe : Sini, sini mu belanjain budhe po??

kepada seorang nenek (masih tetangga juga) yang menenteng nenteng belanjaan.
Luci : Mu masak apa mbah??
Si Embah : Masak bakso, sini mbah mbo' dimasakin, cah ayu...

Doh!!

Mood : O.K
Listening to : Third Eyes Blind - Deep Inside Of You

Forgive Me When I Whine

2008-11-01T08:26:00.002+07:00

With Feet To Take Me Where I'd Go
With Eyes To See The Sunset's Glow
With Ears To Hear What I Would Know

I've been blessed indeed.

cover

2008-10-28T18:59:00.003+07:00

Fred Jones was worn out
from caring for his often
screaming and crying wife
during the day
but
he couldn't sleep at night for
fear that she
in a stupor from the drugs
that didn't ease the pain
would set the house ablaze
with a cigarette

Ben Folds Five - Cigarette

see my ex youtube account for further explanation

penyakit otak

2008-10-28T00:19:00.000+07:00

i forgot that we have broke up

a.s.a.p

2008-10-25T07:29:00.003+07:00

work to do.
deadlines to meet.
no time spare.
in the midst of family chaos.

"God will send a smile to you and sends you special blessings to everything you do."

smile Luci!!!

the begining after the end

2008-10-18T11:13:00.001+07:00

luci yang bodoh ini masih tak menyadari yang terjadi kmrn sampai tadi pagi

i insist that everyting is gonna be just fine.
soon.
hopefully..

they were arguing

2008-10-17T17:02:00.002+07:00

dad : kenapa cemberut?
mom : sapa yang cemberut??
dad : mamimu cemberut kan?? **nanya luci
mom : wong ga ada yang cemberut kok
dad : mamimu ini ga ada apa apa marah
mom : sapa yang marah??
dad : ga marah kok kayak gitu **pergi dengan tampang murka

luci : knp to??
mom : babemu!!
luci : knp??
mom : biasa.
luci : siapa yang ngomong??
mom : **nyebutin nama tetangga
luci : ke salon yuk mi!!

i'm scared to dream

2008-10-13T19:13:00.004+07:00

~~kaos warna ungu.~~ [check]
liburan ke bali.
dufan.
~~taman sari.~~ [check]
~~keraton.~~ [check]
~~sepatu seratus lima puluh ribu.~~ [check]
~~laskar pelangi.~~ [check]

~~.menghapus mimpi.~~

masnya bilang ... kuliah yang bener dulu biar bisa lulus cepet...
yang lain pasti juga bakalan dapat seiring berjalannya waktu ...

luci kekanak-kanak kan lagi yup??
maaaappppppp!!!!

Mood :
Listening to : Camera Obscura - Lets Get Out of This Country

AKHIR

2008-10-13T14:57:00.003+07:00

berlari lari.
melupakan mimpi.
jatuh.
menangis.
terdiam.
tertawa.
pura pura.
menghilang.

akhir yang bahagia dari lemon tea di mc2.

akhir n 1 belakang; yg belakang sekali; kemudian; 2 kesudahan; penghabisan;

Time is Running Out

2008-10-13T14:43:00.006+07:00

Butuh waktu yang lamaaa sekali buat menyadari kalo saya butuh bantuan.

Mami tak mengomel pagi ini.
Lemon tea ala mami tersedia tanpa diminta.
Satu pagi yang bahkan bisa dikatakan indah.

Sampai seorang teman yang baik hati sekali, mulai menjejalkan doktrin yang mengancam di kepala saya.

alih jenjang.
isu DO.
deadline april 04.
skripsi mengambang di bab 3.
bimbingan jam 9 pagi.
ISO.
rencana studi dosen pembimbing.

Tarik nafas dan hembuskan.
Tarik nafas lagi dan hembuskan.

7 huruf, 2 tanda seru
SKRIPSI!!

Mood : numb
Listening to : John Lennon - Love

Question and Answer

2008-10-12T07:34:00.000+07:00

Q : Kamu cinta aku sayang??
A : Pertanyaan yang bodoh.

the reason

2008-10-09T22:35:00.003+07:00

my man is making out with other girls
(girls, mean not only one hoho)
wanitasebelumdansesudahsaya (maksudnya ci???hoho)
well i've known that for a lonnnggg time ago
(so what's new??)

the worse part is ...
he's still play innocent
and i'm still pretending to act nicely to him
(ga bagus berpura pura itu luci!!)
while my heart is screaming for an explanation
(why don't you ask him girl??)

and even worse ...
their friends knew it and no one told me
(haha hidup ini kejam nona!!)
and it's getting much much worse
that i'm still arrange a date with him
on this saturday dan sunday
(ciri ciri diatas adalah definisi orang bodoh!!haha)

what did i actually think??
am i that desperate to be loved??
(u ask me?? who the one i'm gonna ask then??)

ps:
(the italic word = the voice inside my head)
yes. i do self talking sometimes, it's normal right??
haha^^

the strange part is : luci yang cengeng ini tak menangis sedikitpun
.hidup itu indah.

Mood : confused
Listening to : The Moldy Peaches - Anyone Else But You (yang sama sekali TIDAK mencerminkan perasaan saya saat ini hahaha ^^)

seminggu

2008-09-28T17:36:00.002+07:00

nenek bilang " wong kuwi ono swiwi - ne " sambil nunjuk gambar orang bersayap
[swiwi (bahasa jawa) = sayap ayam (bahasa indonesia)]

babe bilang " ga pantes nduk, pakai baju itu "
tepat disaat saya mengenakan baju favorit saya

mbak bilang " berarti bagus pas gemuk kamu "
sambil nunjuk tempat dimana ada sesuatu yang seharusnya menonjol (hihi)

i don't think it's normal

2008-09-19T15:40:00.004+07:00

cry after talking with him on the phone

...

2008-09-19T15:40:00.002+07:00

ya,
saya mencoba
menjadi harapan bangsa ...

ARRRGGGGHHHHHHHHH ... kapan LULUS??????

Mood : Stressesd out!!
Listening to : None

2008-09-14T15:40:00.002+07:00

obat batuk hitam pekat
debu di bawah tempat tidur
tisu berserakan
pakaian lusuh
sprei kumal
muka pucat acak acakan

tentang lelaki saya yang sedang kena flu ...

get well soon dear

ganti ah!!

2008-09-09T22:57:00.004+07:00

ganti nama !!
biar ga dikatain pencemburu lagi ...
biar ga dijudge jealous-an
biar orang ga bisa nyerang saya dengan nick ituh ...

please meet,
Luci, no longer Jealucy anymore ...

knowing me well

2008-09-09T22:14:00.004+07:00

kalo sinta bilang luci itu:
"hiperbolis banget sih lu" selalu melebih lebihkan segala sesuatunya, perkara kecil dibikin gede, perkara besar tambah dilebih lebihkan

luci (yang religius) bilang:
"segala perkara dapat kutanggung di dalam Dia yang memberi kekuatan kepada-Ku" jadi ga masalah dong walapun masalah jadi segede apapun hahaha^^

kalo temen mbak bilang luci itu:
"galak!! kalo aq bukan temennya mbak mu mungkin aq bakalan di jutekin juga, nakutin e kamu tu"

luci (dengan manisnya) bilang:
tergantung mood, tapi biasanya sih iya. hehe^^

[perlu dicatat: Luci, (gini-gini) di takuti di dunia per-op an karena sikap bossy nya dan terkenal suka bentak- bentak user plus nge jutek-in user hoho^^ maapppppp!!!]

masalahnya males je baik-baikin or senyum sama orang yang ga dikenal
apalagi kalo lagi ga niat senyum dan itu juga yang menyebabkan teman teman saya tercintah memilih untuk tidak menghabiskan waktu bersama sayah dikala saya sedang kumat bad moodnyah haha^^ dasar teman teman siyalll :P

kalo babe bilang luci itu:
"malas, makanya ga selesai - selesai tu kuliah"

luci (dengan sikap superrrrrrrr penjilat) bilang:
bentar lagi juga selesai kok be, la ini juga dikerjain tiap hari (maen-maen nyah) hihi.

duh mikirin lulus jadi merasa berdosa, maapkan saya babe, mami, mbak, dedek, butu, budhe, pakdhe, romo, sapalagi ya?? .. [suara di sebelah kanan luci bilang : maap maap maap terus!! ga dikerjain ya sama aja!!] meminjam judul lagu-nya lelaki saya, wait, i will ... hehehee^^

(ngomong ngomong soal lelaki saya...)
kalo lelaki saya tercintah bilang luci itu:
"ribet!! kek anak kecil ah!! (dikatakan dengan nada tinggi plus tampang murka)

luci langsung balik badan, diam, ketakutan, nahan nangis (biar ga dikatain cengeng hehe^^) ga bilang apa apa sampai masnya sadar diri terus minta maap (walaupun ga salah :P) trus baik-baikin luci lagi, baru luci bilang "tadi masnya nakutin banget, sampai pengin nangis rasanya" trus luci dipeluk trus ... halah ga penting yak?!! hehe^^

kalo temen ym yang sering saya cuekin bilang luci itu:
"sombong!!"

luci bilang:
maap, anda hanya berada di tempat dan waktu yang salah... kalaupun tidak!! saya hanya tak suka anda, itu saja!!

hehe jahat yak?!!

Mood : merasa sangad saya
Listening to :nothing

dengan terpaksa hiatus

2008-09-06T12:50:00.002+07:00

bosan?!

tapi
masih ada nyanyian pengantar tidur lewat telp

senang.

another good things to come

2008-08-28T20:49:00.005+07:00

tak bisa menghilangkan senyum dari wajah saya

mami sudah mau membereskan tempat tidur saya lagi, hehe [saya tersenyum]
lemon tea tersedia lagi untuk saya pagi ini, hoho [pasang senyum manis]
ijin untuk main di akhir minggu sudah diberikan, hehehe [kembali tersenyum]
my friends says they miss me.. hehehe sweet friend, [terus tersenyum]
ex menelpon, haha ga penting [tapi bolehlah tetap tersenyum]
ada orang yang suka tulisan saya, makasih, senang sekali [masih tersenyum]
my boyfriend acting so nicely to me, hihihi [tersenyum lebar]
ym berinisial an_doe87 bilang saya sombong... hwe??ok, enough smiling!! [masukin nickname itu ke ignore list] [kembali tersenyum]

hihi

^^hidup itu indah^^

Mood : tersenyum
Listening to : Panic At the Disco - That Green Gentlemen

huhuhuhu

2008-08-27T21:36:00.005+07:00

pelanggarannnn ... !!
masa ga ada yang fans yang loyal ma band sekelas travis??
buktinya ...
single 'something anything'-nya aja belum ada lyricnya di internet sampai sekarang?!!
huff!!
kan luci jadi ga bisa karaokean !!
hiks

[:tentang luci yang terpaksa ngarang2 lyrics travis sendiri:]

sedapatnya luci kira kira begini ..

Something Anything Lyrics

Like a melody
That’ is impossible to play
I wait
In my memory
There’s a part of you that’s gone
Away

To keep my mind from wondering
I'm wondering
To keep my self from falling in,
I’m following

Something anything
Just to keep believing,
Just to keep it breathing
For a moment longer

Ill tell you anything
If I had anything
To say
I keep it bottled in
Cause there’s a time and there’s a place
For this

I keep my story where it is
and act as if
I don’t even no what it is
when all I need is

Something anything
Just to keep believing,
Just to keep it breathing
For a moment longer

Mood : nanya nanya sama om google buat mengungkap kebenaran
Listening to : Lagu yang belump ada lyricnya ituh..

update update!!!

2008-08-26T17:34:00.003+07:00

yippiieeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
senanggggggggggg sekaliiiiiiiiiiiiiii !!!

Luci's back!!!

umm ...
sebenernya beberapa hari inih ...
saya lupa passwordnya blog inih ...

gara garanya kemarin ituh password semua account yang saya punya [dengan tanpa dosa] saya update
dan karena begitu banyaknya
dan tak ada satupun yang sama
seperti yang sudah bisa diramalkan ...
lupa!!

seingat saya sesuatu yang seperti ini : 'wewkerensekalii'
tapi kok ga bisa yak??

ya sudahlah
kepepetnya nyoba fasilitas forgot password,
yang dengan baik hati dan mulia sekali mengirim
password saya ke account email google lain yang saya miliki
yang kebetulan saya pun lupa passwordnya karena sudah lama tak digunakan
huff.
siyalll!!

lagi ...
forgot password digunakan,
yang sekali lagi dan tanpa mengeluh mengirimkan password ke salah satu account yahoo saya.
selang beberapa detik, ada tanda email baru di sudut kanan bawah monitor saya.

dengan mantap saya buka email saya.
fiuhhh ...
menangis terharu saya menatap deretan huruf yang dijejerkan dengan manis itu
(haha)

dan disinilah saya sekarang!!
miss me??
tidak??
oh ...
baiklah ...

hihi^^

NB : ternyata passwordnyah 'wewkerensekaliii' with three 'i' hohoho^^
NB (lagi) : udah diganti lagi passwordnyah .. semoga kali ini ga lupa lagi .. amin. hihi.

Mood: update update update!!
Listening to: Keane - Spiralling

semakin pop saja sayah (part two)

2008-08-18T14:49:00.003+07:00

recent playlist ...
haghs ...
^___^

Mood : popstar??? nope!!! ^^
Listening to : that !!

semakin pop saja saya

2008-08-17T19:23:00.001+07:00

if u came here by urself tonite
cuz he wouldnt pick up the phone
he was s'posed to bring u here tonite
couldnt find him so u came alone

It dont matter cuz ur here now
and the music ur enjoyin
So for the next couple minutes
Baby imma be ur boyfriend

NKOTB feat Ne-Yo - Single

i'm too selfish

2008-08-11T22:12:00.002+07:00

...

for the first time in my life i'm speechless

you've been through a lot of bad days

for the first time in my life i'm crying for you

...

buat seseorang yang disana ...
be tough!!
i know you can through this.

Mood : Jadi pingin sedih
Listening to : Silent of the night

listen to them

2008-08-08T21:23:00.001+07:00

...

they were right!!
it only hurt when i'm breathing
so i guess i should stop breathing

...

bahagia

2008-08-06T02:30:00.000+07:00

....

bahagiakah kamu sayang??
berada di tempat tidur dengan selimut putihnya
saya bahagia , terimakasih

bahagiakah kamu sayang??
dengan penghangat tubuh di punggung
ditambah bau akrab minyak kayu putih sebagai pelengkap
saya bahagia, terimakasih

bahagiakah kamu sayang??
dengan selang oksigen ini,
masih bisa bernafas,
saya bahagia, terimakasih

bahagiakah kamu sayang??
saya bahagia
sampai ingin mengeluarkan air mata

bahagiakah kamu sayang??
saya bahagia
akan ...
setelah saya sehat kembali

....

was

2008-08-05T23:36:00.000+07:00

saya pintar!!
dulu.

**kok jadi pamer yak??!!
hihi^^
piss ahh ...

not [N] ice

if that was supposed to make me down, you need to try harder!!

everything feels like it's going around and round and round in circles

hum hum hum

31 and countings....

thank you

Like a Hide and Seek ...

loooooong timeeeeeee agoooo

i know i'm good when i'm mad

zen zen zen ...

Note to Self!

hi! i'm doing great!

day 1 surabaya, 04 februari 2010

cih

OUCH

zen zzen zen

buzz buzz buzz

numb

distraction

I swear I'm not talking about Men (again)

now look at yourself in a mirror

a grown up luci??

kita oks banget deh prend

does it really necessary ?

did you know??

Quickie *oops* Sum

super (ex) friend?!

i'm in love ...

such a blasstttt!!!!

sstttt ....

distracted

bangun!!

1st

that OH so days!!

feeling random

did you know??

23. so called liar

update

my dad is a ninja

21. i just know what to pray tonight

and so..

the time has come (again!)

explain all

tata cara penulisan daftar pustaka

woooggghh..

halfway to nirvana ...

complicated beauty

kalo kata delon mah indah pada waktunya [hahaha^^]

where's my bright side?? [nada nuduh]

OhMy

after the rain

new hubbyyyy

suddenly feel

hum hum nyam nyam

for my grandma..

bee bla bla bla

dudududu

i just know how to deal with it

[. . .]

until then .. i sleep

Good-bye

...

sky : nowadays

i didn't mean to be ungrateful

birthday wishes

oh my God

meminjam istilahnya [**lupa**] 'being petite is fabulous'

what a ...

awesomeness

bule bule

????

self thought

just listen

me and my big mouth

Forgive Me When I Whine

cover

penyakit otak

a.s.a.p

the begining after the end

they were arguing

Quickie oops Sum

meminjam istilahnya [lupa] 'being petite is fabulous'